adjective peeps use t0 describe me

let see
pe0ple said i'm
-mulut jht cam naqib [haikal] hey dear i'm juz being honest k
-naughty[m0stly]
-manja[so0 many]
-vibrant [mr chang hahha really]
-j0vial
-ann0ying
-materialistic [haha am i?]
-em0 -.-
-kurang kasih syg [i am at time]
-ckp byk hahhahaha

k i dunn0
but i d0 appriciate it if u wanna add m0re
huhuhu
 its juz a thing  dat i d0 when i'm b0red

huhu wel it makes me understand wut pe0ple think of me :P

h0w does it feel

sumtimes i felt like i'm treated unfairly by the one dat i really l0ve
it kinda true
being a punished f0r sumtthing thats n0t entirely my fault
n its hurt like hell....
seriously... sumtimes i juz wondering
 wut hv i done so0 bad dat makes me deserve being treated like this...
 but life is n0t fair right,,,
hurm,,
its hard f0r me for fall in l0ve wif sumone,,
but when i do...
its so0 deep
n i'll c0mmit fully

sumtimes its n0t fair f0r others to0
bc0z i can seem t0 open it t0 other
even though its ended
but seriously
my heart still wif him,,
 he havent gv it back t0 me yet
n i do0 h0pe his heart still wif me

its n0t like i wanna brag
but its n0t like i dun hv another pe0ple aproaching me
but my heart still bel0ngs t0 him
n its n0t fair for them,,,
bc0z i cant seem t0 love them like i d0 t0 him,,,

i'm so0 stupid but hey
l0ve is being stupid t0gether
but i think in this case
it just me huhuhuhu
wuteva
i'll b th0se stupid gurl f0r this time
 hey
 life's a wheel
aite?
well its my turn n0w
n his will come later
n i d0 pray i'll b there t0 see it or i'll b part of it
[revenge is sweet babay~~]

"Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If nature allowed us to go through our life without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been"
qouted fr0m yasmin ahmad bl0g~
such an inspiring pers0n
check out her link at the pit st0p k~

kant0i wif a capital letter

i hate sp0rt
 4 me
 sp0rt is about guy in short pants n sweating
h0t~~ hahahhahahahah

diz past few day,,e hv sp0rt event at d c0llege
kinda b0red
 well g0t 2  i seat next t0 deli.. dat cute QUT
but he juz cute dats all
kinda b0rink

owh~~~
we went t0 JJ afterward 2 eat
instead bump int0 our c0llege direct0r
n she was like shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttt~~~~~~~~
she lurve t0 repaet stuff
'hell0 hell0 hell0'
'balik balik balik'
herl0w we r turning 21
dont treat us like a kids k~~
hek,,,

wuteva~~

them due t0 our takut-ness n terkejut-ness
we went t0 tesc0 t0 eat instead
 bought a table
hahha
them
them i found 


only 1.9 k~~
 best nyer~~
 cam nk bli jer td~~
heh~



nurul left for uk already
she's satying at l0ndon
l0nger this time around
 b4 she left her mumma cut her hair
bob~ cesss tiru achu lak,,
 but hey
 she's cute in it
 dun hv da pic yet
 mayb later

its n0t really nice but it darn funny

my g0sh
its darn funny~~
i only watched the sarah silverman n matt dam0n b4 but this one is hilirious

pe0ple leave

they do leave u around
its hard
but its real
 one by one
sumtimes its unexpectable
sumtimes its predictable
 pe0ple do leave u
 eventhough u still need
them
they juz leave
they might say they will still b there wif you
 but sumtimes they dont
they juz find a new thing or new life
they r just leaving you
one by one
heartbroken
ignored
stuck
leave behind
they just leave
then it just u
 n tears
lots of it
alone

its n0t really a nice weekend

i went back to a/s diz weekend
wif so0 many thing to do
which mainly inv0lving my parents m0ney
n relaxing
 but
but
n0ne of it came true~
it sux
 starting wif
da bus ride
[i should hv listen t0 my mum n take plane]
its tiring
 n its been a l0ng time for me t0 take da l0ng journey bus ride..
then g0t back h0me,,
kinda wondered
y non of them called or sms me for my locati0n
then g0t back
 y is all th0se car outside
n who's dat pers0n outside ma house
n wut they r d0ing in baju kurung? baju melayu n k0piah?
teng
 teng
teng
my parents r having kenduri~~
j0y~~
i'm in my hipster n my tshirt n0t exactly c0vering it up
j0y
n i'm darn starvin
[after 7 hours bus ride? obviouslly!]

my parents r so0 damn bz
no time for me
i hate it
 hate it
darn much
 its n0t like i always there
but they didnt really care bout my presence
k fine
starting diz week
 i'm g0in to b bz
which 's one of da reas0n y i came back
but hey
 if i'm n0t really imp0rtant
fine
n0 need for me t0 g0 back anym0re aite?
aite?
 juz stay here where i am n0w
stuck here

bc0z pe0ple leaves
emoti0nally n physically
n n0w p0eple around me r leaving me
one by one
step by step
y?
 bc0z i grown up?
 which sumthing dat i really hate
seriously i dun really like t0 b an adults
i hate it
 full of resp0nsibility
which i'm n0t ready f0r yet
 but one day i will
 i kn0e i will
 juz n0t now
n i hate it
i still wan pe0ple t0 treat me like b4
 like when i was 16 or 18 or 19
y0ung adults
hate it~



i wish i could freeze the time
when everything g0es right...
the way i wan it~

iPhone any0ne?

i'm crazy bout it
t0tally int0 it
so0 crazy bout it
 but
 but
 but there isnt any 3g iPhone yet
 da cam is juz 2megapix
no ym? seriously?
 but it got utube
hurm,,,
should i or shouldnt i bought it?
it costest bout 2.3 k...
for 8g...
kinda co0l n owh so0o slick n i'm l0ving it
 but it'd n0t 3g!
no instant msger
or video
hurm,,
its not like i actually use vid calls aite?
hurm,,

futsalling until ur feet hurt :P

i went t0 play futsal wif my fwen last nite [well m0rning since we start at 12]
had a blast of fun n few bruises...
huhuhu
leypaking at mcd afterwards
talking n laughing at fendi;s dirty j0kes n riddles
talking bout fo0tball wif catz
huhu he did blanja me bc0z he hit me wif the ball n got bruised by it hehehe
k catz... next time d0 it again hahahaha
owh owh
 did i menti0n to u dat faizal als0 in acti0n las nite n
he was omg~~
so0o0 hot!!! hehehehe
he was da g0alie n a gud one i may add
huhuhuhuhu
such a happy nite
 but huhu
i didnt g0 4 extra t0turial class diz m0rning[ever heard of it?? extra toturial-LAME]
n my group already presented
 obviously i hv n0 intenti0n to b there
but~~
kant0i mdm sheering [my totur] msg me
heh~~
my excuse??
 im n0t feeling well in the m0rning n fall asleep after taking my medcine
huhuhuhu
but i did go to c0llege afterwards for group discusii0n
huhuhuhu

k dats all for now
s0rry n0 pitcha,,
 i didnt hv any due to lack of bat
 i asked ma fren 4 it later k~~

lexxy is fine but n0t kewl anym0re

my lexxy is fine n0w
da driver is ok
but,,,,
th emedia center cant be use
 after i formatted it
i t0tally forgot bou the shuttle center :(
n0w,, i search high n l0w lo0king for it,, my gosh
 still cant find any:(
but fall in lurve wif the new m0del lenovo y410
it got the butt0n n very slick
 heh~
bwat jeles jer :(

need t0 save  m0ney
 i wan my iPh0ne ~~
cpt2 cpt laa bulan may~`
cpt laa dpt all0wance
bley bli iPh0ne~~

i dig my sis new h0use

i lurve it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i went t0 my sis[alang]'s new house its darn nice

c0lonial style
retr0 details which i lurve da besh
private stairs[kinda horro at time]

lurve it!!

hey
pictha speak l0uder than word~~~


[da drawer n dressing table~~ lurve it]


[the tank inside  the maid's t0ilet kinda creppy here]

fr0m the balc0ny

[garden wedding any0ne???????]


[g0tta lurve th0se balc0ny aite?]

the OMG super duper retr0 tiles inside bathro0m
owh did i menti0n to u dat they hv bathro0m in every ro0m??


the private access


did ya think its kinda creppy? well
my sis lived in the higest flo0r which is four..
typicall c0lonial house.. they are alll very private n so0 its sound pr00f
pe0ple juz dun really hear wuts g0in on
 wif the private acces??? kinda creppy,,
very reminded me of the holloween m0vie...
psycotic murderer much???

opPs i did it again

oppsie daisy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``
i did it again
mayb i'll practically do it every sem~~
hahahhaha
i br0ke a tube filled wif 0.5 mol hidrocloric acid
last sem,, sulfuric acid muahhhahahah
but last sem i juz spilled it
 diz sem its upgraded to broke it hahha
hey its unintentionally l0rwh
it was slipped inside my kaen then
when i stand up
it drag da tube together
bang~~
it falls n broke
i was like ~~
OMG~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
n0t again n run up to my lect~~
 ma'am i br0ke a tube of chemical
[dat time havent identified it yet]
owh ok juz go n tell lab ass.
n i ran to the ro0m
akak,, sy bagi pecah chemical
-luka x?
 x~~ kna bayar brapa??
-seratus
owh ok,,,
the she f0llowed me to da crime scene [hehe]
-owh x per nnt sy cuci
x per kerk? biar laa saya cuci
-x per
wah~~~
pe0ple r so0 kind to me right now~~
alhamdulillah
heheheh
then before i went of of the class
thank you m'amm,, sorry ma'aam
-aa,, erma,, kamu ok ker?
yerr sy ok,,, x luka sy pkai sock~
huhuhuhu



[yeah,,, i'm guilty]
 n that's all

owh btw i juz wanna say h0w bad i am bc0z we
malaysian r still so0 l0w in self awareness
 juz n0w inside monorail
there's a pregnant lady beside me nobody offered her a seat~~
b0do~~~~~~~~
x baik laa k0rg!!!

i'm better n0w

i'm better n0w
 i'm fine
 yesterday was my melting p0int
 i br0ke d0wn n cry my heart out so0 many times
 i eyes was like a cazy g0ldfish
 but hey
 i'll always d0 dat
 after my breaking p0int
i'll willt stand up n walk again
 i'm feeling bteer n0w
eventhough its v day
 but hey
is v day
i'll b happy next year
its wut pe0ple do
feeling up n down
 i'm so0 sorry if i hurt any0ne in my previous p0st
so0 sorry
it juz wit i elt during dat time

i cry a l0t
 like enough to feed 5 african kids
 but hey
 dats life
i've neva go through dat
 n its my turn aite?
dun w0rry
i'm better
str0nger n0w~
elle dear u know i'm a str0ng gurl aite?
dun w0rry bout me k
i'll b fine here
n i miss u

i tried but its juz to0 much to swallow

i tried
so0 hard
 for 2 days without crying
 but i juz cant
i couldnt do it
it juz a first day at class
man
its hard
darn hard

it juz to0 hard to bear
he is n0t mine anymore
yes it is hard
 but i'll pray for god for his kindness
to make me stronger
it is hard
darn hard
i'm s0rry
wuteva nut
 d0 wut u wan
im a nobody to st0p you
seriously
just do wut u wan
i'm n0t mad at u
seriously
i juz dunwanna know bout it

tomorow is da vday
i heart vday
 since i was young
seriously....
eventhough sum pe0ple say its wr0ng
but wh0 cares bout da da hist0ry
its all based on ur intenti0n
its a day t0 sh0w ur love to sumone dats capture ur heart
sumone special t0 u

im always g0t excited wif vday
always
since i was y0ung
n as a fren
we always shared our excitement of that day
one of my male fren
always ask f0r my 0ppini0n
n i'll be there  f0r him
 n this year
i'll try my best t0 be there f0r him
h0pe he didnt notice anything bout me

juz n0w
 after helpin my fren wif her pressie
 i suddenly felt so0o0o sad
i juz love that day
 n this year
 i'm unable t0 celebrate it
bc0z my heart cann0t bear it.....
plzz
i need time t0 heal
i really d0
seriously
i need time t0 b calm
i dun wan t0 l0st all our sweet mem0ries
 bc0z it is sweet
n it's n0t guilty
right?
juz gimme time
time
dats all dat i need
i'll make my self busy after dizz...

seriouly if he came after me right n0w n wan me back
 i will g0 str8 t0 him
 i will f0rget all wut he had d0ne t0 me
bc0z i really love him
w0rds cant even describe it

but i'll stay strong....

i will

i'm single n i'm fine

kay
t0ld ya b4 if sumthing happen i will ann0unce it here
k

we br0ke up
juz n0w
around 12.45 i think
face t0 face
in a go0d way

after my l0ng speech try t0 pursuit him
he juz so0 c0ld
so0 hard
he admit it
but he said he juz f0llow his heart
then
finally i juz g0 with the fl0w
we br0ke up
we still love each other
he juz wan a lil freedom

therefore 
we remain cl0se fren
he will b there when i cry
or watching m0vie wif me
he'll b there t0 hear my grumble
or g0ssiping

will remain cl0se fren
 like we used to b4 we couple up[x laa lama sgt hahhaha]
he'll b my date for the pr0m nite
bc0z he said he juz wanna b al0ne
so0 he pr0mise me n0t to pursuit any other gurl
if he tired of being alone  n i'm still single
he will c0me back t0 me

dun w0rry
my babies will still hv their papa
it's still will b him

smile
guess wut
 i didnt cry at all
maybe i practicaly ready 4 diz
so0 i'll b fine
so0 does he...
we r remain cl0sed fren :)



know wut?
i in the mood for diana r0ss i'll say alil pray 4 ue~

feeling blue

i'm n0t feeling very well
 g0t mc t0day
staying at h0me
due to my tonsilitis n fever
guess wut?
my tem yesterday is 39~ in the m0rning
 n i hv n0 idea after dat...
i do think its getting w0rse....

went t0 clinic yesterday wif fafa n riena
then g0 to kfc
n0 use
i v0rmit all da fo0d after dat
n n0w i hv both side of da tonsil
 so0 hard 4 me to even drink...

feeling really2 bad...
d0ne my asgment...
asked riena t0 pass it up
hurm,,,,

h0ws he?
i do really miss him,,,,
i do really wanna talk t0 him,,,,
hurm,,,,
still rmember
last sem
i was sick
 he came by n buy me medicine
 n feed me bc0z he kne i wouldnt eat,,,
i do
really
 miss him
so0 much

hurm,,
here's all da medicine i g0t yesterday



huhuhuhuhu lo0k at my antibi0tic~~ it does lo0k like a bee aite???
i hate biogen it taste so0o0 bad
i v0rmit all my fo0d after eating dat~

all over my b0dy is soring
seriously
a simple touch also make it worst...

hurm,,,
i dunn0 wut t0 do right n0w~

he d0esnt seems t0 care bout me anym0re :(

he juz so0 diff
so0 c0ld
y
y

d0wn int0 da mem0ry lane

im readin back my previous p0st
in x fresh n 360
i d0
i d0 hv doubt in him b4
 buts its clearly faded away
n i did afraid of this things happen
i did afraid of fallin hard into him

n

its finally happens

yeah
 he did pr0mise me t0 care bout me n love me at the beginning
 hay
 it guess
juz like my doubts
 his pr0mises faded away~

hurm,,
 here is the victim of this upc0ming failed relati0nship
so0 s0rry
but u g0t ur bel0ved mummy right???
she's nice n bright~



dear cuppy, hedgie wh0 is under papa abducti0n
 s0rry mummy couldnt d0 anything :(
rest in peace~

this is strictly g0es to u mr luqman

k
if u wanna break up with me
i'm t0tally fine n0w
i learn t0 face the fact dat
i cant make u l0ve me

but
y d0 u have t0 av0id me
i'll try my besh t0 make everything w0rk
but i cant see a lil eff0rt fr0m u
so0
i dun wan t0 force u anym0re

if u felt like a burden t0 u to help me bout lexxy  thingy
 its ok
juz said so0
but
 why when i asked u r u h0nestly wanna help me
u said u d0??
but then i heard dat u felt like i'm burdening u?

seriously luq
wut else d0 u wan??????????????????????
tell me

i tell u wut i want
i wan t0 settle diz
s0 that diz m0nday
 i can feel better
i dun hv t0 feel weird lo0kin at u or hearing ur v0ice
u said we can b fren
rite?
 but if this is wut u meant by being fren??
ur tw0 years of standard one is uselessssssssssss
learn bout frenship m0re k~~

plzz luq
its all dat i asking 4

asgment m0de

w0ke t0day
thinking its still thursday
 but,,,,,,,,,
hey
 its friday~~~~~~~~~~
which means
i hv juz another 3 days t0 complete my asgment
g0t all the stuff but havent start anything yet

piaget
piaget
piaget
 i dun believe in ur the0ry
i believe in b.f skinner :P

n vyg0tsky
i kinda agree wif u
a bit
sy mlaih~

owh
 here's my v0w

x nk kuaq sh0ppin in this 3 days peri0d~~
plz
x nk
x nk

 bc0z i juz wanna stay at h0me
n d0 my asgment
n cry mayb[n0te dat]

owh
 btw t0days is our 15 m0nth anniversery
hurm,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

yeah dear
single life's not dat baad
 i kn0e
i've been there b4
but f0r now
 ntah laaa
his gh0sht still haunt me i think

my previous bl0g

currently reading my past bl0ggin at xfresh my g0sh
t0tally byk,,,,
it seems like i'm darn ready t0 let him go
it was like 7 m0nth ag0
but now...
n0t really
but hey
love is letting go
[hre's my previous p0st like 7 m0nth ago~]

i'm g0in t0 rerg myself t0morr0w,,
wif0ut 0ne of my guppies,,, wh0 went h0me bc0z her dad juz pass away
with0ut a b0yfriend,, bc0z he d0esnt respect me de t0 his undyin sisterho0d wif a frenz 0f mine whic i myself intr0duce her t0 him,,
life full of shit sumtimes aite...

nvm,, i'm a big gurl..
i dun need a man t0 be pretty
i dun need his sh0ulder t0 cry 0n anym0re bc0z i;m d0ne wif dat..
i hate his guts 0f ign0rin me
i hate my self bc0z i fell f0r him,,
i'm n0t da same 0ld gurl anym0re
i need t0 b t0ugh in order t0 face diz cruel lil w0rld,,,
wut da heck,,,
bf?? i'm g0in t0 fine a new 0ne,,,
m0re cuter
m0re h0tter than him,,
i'm g0in t0 ign0re him f0r da rest 0f my life,..
i hate him,,
i cried a l0t bc0z of him...
i hate him f0r makin me cry again,,, n0w,,,

my lexxy is g0ing crazy~

my lexxy its n0t sexy anym0re
first
it c0ntain l0tta virus
sec0ndly
the cd driver is l0ose
y???
i dunn0~~
maybe bc0z it fell yesterday m0rning at the airp0rt
but hey its inside da lapt0p beg dat g0t padded stuff~~
so0o0 sad.....
seriously
so0o0 studid diz lexxy
n0e wut? da virus had attack da system
gr8
its extra sl0w n0w
eventhough its 1g
n duo core
stupid right?
on the t0p of it~~
 everytime i'll try t0 0pen opera
there'll b a bubble 
'cann0t supp0rt"
sial~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
its duo core 4 gudness sake~~
even nut's celer0n can supp0rt opera
limewire?
heh t0tally n0t working~~
my lexxy n0w is mute as a mice~~~
seriously~~
really need to fix it~~
but hey
 i got asgment t0 submit diz m0nday~~~~~~~~~~
gr8
gr8
gr8
 
so0 next time if u found a familiar lo0king gurl crying on da str8
screaming
tr0jan[ala lucy in sweeney t0d]
yeah
 d0 st0p by n buy me starbuck k~
i like caremal frappu wif cinnam0n p0wder thank you

da tablue picha~

remember i pr0mised u dat i'll p0st da tablue pitcha i to0k at the klpac open day??
 here -->



[n0te t0 my self=erma n0 matter h0w happy r u
st0p smilin like a senile cat
its ugly~]

i thought they r g0ing like t0 email it pers0nally t0 me
buttttttt
guess wut???

they r to0 lazy
 they juz send me da link t0 their picasa album~~
heh
malaih~~~

huhu nvm

 juz found out bout da tablue act0rs

actually they r bunch of student like me
but perf0rming art student
n0t a tesl student [d'oh~]
they r in the oral stage club [check them out in facebo0k http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=5070107265]
they f0rm diz club like a year b4?
n0t sure bout dat but seriously i d0 hv fun taking pictha wiff'em
n there r very talented
 they are like freezing like 3 mins 4 da tablue
[kinda co0l bc0z they can w0rk in klpac~~~ i really heart dat place]

k
 u might keep asking
wut da heck she's talking bout tablue??
its pr0nounce as tab.low
its a french w0rd btw
it a freeze frame of any scene in da play 4 bl0cking
bl0cking-a part/movement of actor so0 dat d audience didnt catch a glimpse of their butt during da play.
tablue is use by da direct0r during da rehearsel s0o that the audience could see da wh0le play [facial expressi0n,gesture etc]

k
 i juz mumbling away~~
i kn0e~~~
but i like mumbling :P
hahhahah

wuteva
 catch u later alligat0r~

i'm back~~

yeah,,
i'm back in kl...
went sh0ppin juz n0w
juz bought a lil sumthing 4 ma self
n my mum,,,
dats alll
retail theraphy??
a lil bit help,,,,
hurm,,,
 wish my self da best...
erma
 b str0ng

d update~~

huhu i kn0w,, i said until 6th  aite?? but juzz to0 much t0 p0ur~~
k satrting wif da day i left f0r kdh~
it was 31st aite??
hurm wut happen?? yeah,, da wh0le mcD bias thingy at klia~
yeah
 b0ys n gurls
 d0 not
i repeat
d0 n0t go n eat mc d at klia
y?
 1- its expensive-better u buy at klsentral 1st
 2- the w0rkers there?
 bIAS AGAINST LoCAL~~~~~~~
i was standing there like 2 mins wif tw0 lapt0p bag
waiting 4 d cashier
 but da minute dat f0reigner sl** came
 the cashier appeared ~~
wut da shit is dat
 n i was standing there da wh0le time~
wut da s**t is dat??
 k fine da cashier is hot but n0 manner??
 mine u~~
 u r w0rking n pr 4 gudness sake???
then i was like *sacarsticly* bias agaist l0cal arent u? t0 da cashier n he was juz sheepishly smiling
[hey i was like tired n angry n t0tally n0t in a gud m0od,, ur cute smile?? didnt w0rk here baby~]
then when he gv me my order,, s0rry erkh kak[kakak??? hey u??? i'm only 20!!]
usually i will sweetly smile *its ok* hell n0
 i juz left[i was very c0ld lately aite?]

then i left f0r langkawi
n0te diz
I DIDNT BUY ANYTHING
y?
n0 mo0d 4 sh0ppin
n n0t enough time....
then when arrived at kuala perlis p0rt
 went 4 restaurant nelayan
[really miss elle's daddy,,,,]
huhuhu fried prawn n squid~~ nice~~~
n laksa there

nice~

k,,
yesterday??
 d0ne n0thing
juz tv-ing

t0day????
hurm went out wif ma
 t0 da p0st office[call me weird but i lurve p0st office :P]
then went out wif ma babes~~
elle~~
juz a relax eve
eating n cake-ing
talking
@ secret recipe



we shared da cake[p0nt x abeh hehehhe]



b4 we depart t0 our own car[huhu]
[my g0d~~ jambu ayaq~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ hahhaha]



hurm dats all 4 n0w~~
g0t stuff t0 do wif my kayers
a lil bit like sisterho0d of travellin pants huhuhu
k catch u later~~