sumtimes

it freaks me out how happy i am
bcoz when life is full of joy
a bell rings
the flash back of hardness come out

i used to b happy in love
then the hope was crashed
n now i found new one
which also sounds promising
but
it kinda freaks me out
if maybe his love will decrease
when im increasing
bcoz i can learn to love
but what happen if our loves one changed
waking up without the urge to love me
lost interest in holding my hands

isnt it kinda bummer?
no
its not like im still hooked up with him
but as we understand
history is a reminder
that things is happening
war can be repeated
maybe things is like
the sweet summer
but we never knew when the sun will stop shinning?
or the wind went over blow?
its the hardest thing
when u have to accept
the person who is in love with u yesterday
juz
wasnt anymore
bcoz we cannot simply force people to love us
stop them from taking back their love
feeling is like an art
feeling is abstract
sum people might see it
sum people are juz dont

yes im in germany
but i juz cant take him back from france
but people are juz people
we changed
i changed
bcoz when we try sumthing that we thinks
its kinda bad previously
we experience it
n either change or stay on our opinion
arent we?
yes we r
maybe we didnt see it
but others will......

it juz dat
im not perfect
you r not perfect
i know ur flaws
u known mine
i dun mine urs
soo far u seems lurve my flaws
n i hope its for a long time
bcoz im keen being with u for a long time
i dun mind seeing ur big belly in the future
or sweepin off ur hair on the floor
or cryin over ur mis-words
bcoz ur flaws facinates me
my flaws makes ur laugh
n i like it....


*im period soo im emotic soo i dun care puke or what handle with ur own care :P*