i am being nervous?

i cant sleep, been tossing and turning for a while
the day is near
so near
went to measure the dress already
hurm
i think im fat
like uber fat
n i hv to do something bout that
ASAP
just another 60 days to go
gosh
i hope everything goes well according to the plan
honestly
without your own money
you could never really have the wedding of your dream
but honestly
i dont really care about the wedding
the marriage life is what i've been looking for :)
hope everything goes well

i feel fat
n i think i am
i dont feel confident about my body anymore
yup cliche
totally the 21st century teenagers sorta issues
but
honestly
its true

dear erma
please do something
its your body
shake it
keep it fit
take care of what your mama gave 'cha