i never thought

1.That one day i will end up being engaged to the guy i met at the odd place at the odd hour
2. That a guy called up his mom while on a first date and tell her that he is marrying me. AGAIN first date
3.That a guy cope up with my crazy behaviour, bought me the odd shoes i always wanted and laugh at my silly throwing fits acts.
4. That a guy defended me behind my back.
5. That a guy sing pink's "please dont leave me" because i didnt answer my phone after arguments


i better save the rest for later post
and super uber extremely hope ALLAH SWT bless our unity later

i love you my super policeman,,
now, wake up and reply my msg!

the war of the ring

which one is the worst part?
getting marriage or the wedding
honestly i hv no idea

can i cry?
owh
im cryin
please and thank you

i know i told him i wan the gold wedding band

n no more diamonds
but this is CHEAP and represent ME!

YES
keep lecture me how the gold can b trade n everything
but bitch look at youu
and look at me?
u dressed like my mom
n i dressed like me
capiche?

*yes will buy it wif my dowry booo*

i have a questions your honor,

how are we judge ourself?
by the perspective of others or by our own evaluation?

well
since im getting married in couple of months *cue fireworks,marching bands,release those doves and throw the petals* **well kinda being self-absorbed this past few months sorry friends,**
i always get those comments like
"you getting married? owh are you like old enough for that?"
suck that up bitchie people im 24 this year~
might looks like 14 but yeah im 24

Thats the thing
i might acted like a giddy 15 years old gurl who thought Lady Gaga is a royal princess
but i think im matured enough to handle marriage life
people always referred me as the immature one
but honestly?
even when you are like 65, you will still have the craving to play swings with your grandchildren
If you are like TOTAL MATURE PERSON
you wont do any of those things
Thats where the terms YOUNG AT HEART comes
Just because i dress like a young adult,
Talk like a rejected cheer leader
It doesnt mean that i dunno how to handle myself

Like all the fruits and vegetables in the world
YOU CANT BE TOTAL MATURE or over ripe
because
if you goes over ripe
you'll be wilt or in malay LAYU
gone, ignored and cause food poisoning if been eaten
honestly do you wanna be like that?

So
If i said i wanna get married, *my parents beyond the approval, who else is paying for catering? do'oh*
ziplock you pretty little lips, erase your memory, stop the triggering urge to say
IM TOO YOUNG,IMMATURE TO HANDLE IT
Life works is very puzzling ways
Allah swt wants HIS servant to taste every peaks of love,happiness,hardship,bitterness
soo keep your opinion to yourself, unless you are paying for the wedding or the dowry
if not.. zip lock n wish me congratulation !

a couple of months

to come :)

cant wait!

i am being nervous?

i cant sleep, been tossing and turning for a while
the day is near
so near
went to measure the dress already
hurm
i think im fat
like uber fat
n i hv to do something bout that
ASAP
just another 60 days to go
gosh
i hope everything goes well according to the plan
honestly
without your own money
you could never really have the wedding of your dream
but honestly
i dont really care about the wedding
the marriage life is what i've been looking for :)
hope everything goes well

i feel fat
n i think i am
i dont feel confident about my body anymore
yup cliche
totally the 21st century teenagers sorta issues
but
honestly
its true

dear erma
please do something
its your body
shake it
keep it fit
take care of what your mama gave 'cha

in case i forget

its the time of the yearrrrr
what i had accomplish in 2011 *twothousandeleven*

1)graduated weeeeeeeeeeeeee
2)engaged weeeeeeee
3)finally completed all the 16 states *is it?* in malaysia weeeeeeeeeeee
4) gain weight b0oooooooooooooooo
5) part time job weeeeeeeeeeeeee *6 days je pont*

hello today is 11/11/11

im 24 years old
still charming as hell
gained weight :47kg now *fuck me*
same height : 150 cm
engaged to be married <3

bye

mommy always right

even though it devastating but its true :'(

he did go back to his hometown for my bday
since its aidiladha... n his dad not home :'(

i think im inside depression phase of life
everything makes me depress
haisyh

hopping for the best

six more days

for me to meet my craziest babes collecting robe + having wild time wif them


CANT WAIT

walaupun mrh tetap usha wedding band

i know i hv flaws

too many flaws
im not a perfect daughter to my parents
i dont really obey their nstruction
i talk back sometimes when i felt the need to defend myself
but
i will
never
ever
treat my parents
they way she n he treated mine
i had it
its beyond annoying
frustrating
i know once we are married
we need to obey our hubby
but not all the rules
if the rules making our mother's heart breaking into a thousand pieces
stop
drop
and gone
u really hate the way my parents still show their affections towards them
honestly
where did you put ur empathy
dont you fell the burn of your since inside you heart?

wedding and a marriage

wedding is the celebrating of a marriage

right now
im more into marriage than a wedding
i know it might come across as a shock for people since i kinda the one who adore wedding
but honestly
i kinda hate the hustle bustle of a wedding
i just wanna b his wife
a legal in both religious and law

what say you?

do you ever have

a twitter hater? well now i do
y?
bcoz i tweet sumthing about KPLI being suck at teaching *they do* to Dr Wee Ka Siong
n he replied *full of annoyance i might add*
the come this girldude who bashed me
the saying something bout the KPLI work their arse off
like for A YEAR? ok full stop
soo we come into argument
she made peace offering which i refuse since she blame me for "now he wont help us anymore"
which was beyond ridiculous since i tweeted n say sorry to dr wee n he said its ok



owh yeah, after dr wee replied me, she said sumthing like "i wanna make peace, lets work together yadayadayadaya yapping bout sumthing,, but WHO NEEDS A PHONY? she created fake acc just to contact dr wee? talking bout irresponsible bitch
and claiming my frens n i bashing her?
DUDE i hv B.Ed u hv B.Sc soo y dont you go and sit at the back table of cafeteria where you belong??
as much i hate cohort 4, but we did stick together

that bitch is annoying
besh of luck writing to the DPM
cohort 4 insider hv the info already
you guys dont
bcoz KPLI is a bunch of freaks
bye
i hate u
i wanna punch ur gut
*taking off my earring*

today is 19th july

n im bored
like dead bored
honestly
like bore, boring, and bored
it is like the super duper boredom the universe have ever seem
simply
BORED TO DEATH
*end of my definition of boredom*

i miss my fiance
like seriously missing
like a kitty miss it's momma bcoz its a feeding time
yeah
like missing him too much

and i feel likes im a fatty
like fat fat not phat fat
like fatty moi
n my sister is like im not fat untill i gv birth to my second child
like, yeah and now u r fat arent you? and im like fat fat


gosh i hate my life

alhamdulillah

humbling over the gift given by the ALLAH swt the almighty
simply because

IM GRADUATING IN OCT
*Que. fireworks, flower bouquet flush toys overflow*

thank you

lets pretend baby

that you've just met me
and i never seen you before

and i wanna falls in love with you again
i dont have to try, it so easy
who needs to pretend?

im tired n missing everyone, listening to all sort of cute song

i might steal your clothes and wear them if they fits me

KUALA TERENGGANU

i know i might feels miserable there when i reach there
but i kinda love goin there
i love the journey with him
i love the time we spent on the sand
i love it when he took me to go and eat something he love
bcoz i love spending time with him :)

goin there on 17th june
hope to be home before 22nd
mummy is back
i miss her soo much :(
i miss home
i love my home
i love being there

last post 15 feb 2011

bwahahahah it was waaaayy to long
im bored
finally done wif my 6 years of study
passed my final
now need to pay up n show up for my
FREAKING GRADUATION DAY

reading through the tweets
reflecting my past
eliminating facts that annoyed me
yeah im fine
got lotta things to talk about
lets start with LIFE LOVE and DEVELOPMENT

ive been in relationship like many many times
since primary school *lets say im very fastbloomer*
it is not love
it is relationship
real simple
no biggie
still friends with him until now
stilll hangin out with him when we both back in town
until...
my fiance say no
i was like
hurm.... talk to him bout it later

secondary school
these is the period for me of growing up
still have my baby dressing up weirdly
*not appriciate it at all*
my first boyfriend hurm form 5 i think
yup
we share same name :P met at the camp
hey im cute wokay!
hahah still friend and he is big now
like real big

1st real relationship
wow
history a made for us to learn aite
not saying much bcoz people might assume im still in love with him or whatever *puke
i turn bitter after this relationship
maybe because sense of betrayer and others seems to think im the wrong one
i dont really care but i just want people who assume im the acid n turn into the bad character something to ponder on
"i might b bitchy and express my discomfort /opinion freely, but have i ever act orsays something stupid that creates the whose chaotic atmosphere? did i ever ask you guys for opinion? and if you guys gv some do i bluntly rejected that?"
please before pointing finger, please analyze me and his behaviour, pick which u prefer i dont gv a damn "

2nd real relationship *owh no we engaged now weeeeeeee*
before i starts this relationship after 1 year i think is it? i've been playing around the fields
and i found one on the most un-expected place
i dnt really count on it at first
but his determination ,and the way he treated me change all that
yeah my mum n sis kinda against it at first
as rebel as i am
i was like who cares:P
he made me happy :)
things grows bigger and better
maybe because we dont try hard,
we grown up together
learning bout each other
what i really like about him
he doesnt hate my ability of instant changing of facial expression
hahahhahahah he knows me
he pampered me
well i pampered his as well because he is like a sick kitten
n i love him
n his mom love me :P
and i love trganus food :P

based on experiences and collective comments bout my relationship
most of my bf usually
a)pampered me maybe im such a manja girl and they continue doing that
b) shower me lotta of their state speciality foods -kopok lekor,jeruk,ikanpekasam
c)as annoying as i am, they usually didnt ignore me, a'aa kn even when we broken up the awkward period, they at least replied my text hurm,, wif my fiance , longest time of no speaking*cold war i call it cold war* is 2 days, communication is vital for me, because IF U DOESNT LOVE ME PLEASE AT LEAST TELL ME BOUT IT
when u didnt call or answer i will think u 1)die 2)lost your phone and i always hv 2 so u can hv 1
d)just dont be mean to me, bcoz i will b better bitch than you, honestly you really dont like it when i hate you because my words are vicious

yeah i grow up
leaving my cohort with longer list of people i wish i do not see their face anymore than people i will invite to my wedding list
bcoz growing up
makes u athinker
you will choose to be around people who gv positive energy to you
why would u waste your time pretending liking those other people
because once u reach school
you will hv another soo shorter the list of people to b nice with
because u hv longer period and place to fill in

im jackpot but

IM DARN LUCKY

having

a fiance

great funny frens

n lotta pink pressie

i love being moise

thank u people <3

dear mr v day

i dunno y

i always like u

since i hit puberty until now

you always b my fav

maybe it because u always be consistence

coming on the dot

every year

without skipping a beat

ur power amazed me

u makes the price of certain thing gone sky high

only the chosen one, usually the pinky one

every display window turns pink

cupid flying around

heart scattered around in every different form u can imagine

flowers never smells better

the fluffiest teddy bear seems emerging from every conner

people seems to smile n giggles a lot more

chick flicks and romantic comedy conquering the cinema

my bf oppsie fiance heavy metal heart seems to melt a bit

im happy

i love u mr vday

u seems to create my ideal world for a day

even though those sum hater spreading bad things about u

forget the hater

they need purpose in their life

n they choose to hate u

its post vday in my time zone

but i know across the atlantic

sumones hearts metled

faces r brighter and

smiley is the IT accessory :)

happy v day

please don change

i will wait for u again next year

happy vday my fren

fafa riena kinut syima didie nadia choki and all *celus org pas dia x celebrate vday*

i love u all

thanks for sharing the love with me tooo :)

can we juz elope

bcoz i hates people

old people who suppose to be "adik bradik" "kwn baik" our parents

like OMG

r u sure u need to b here

do ever utter a single complete sentence to my bro?

wait

do u know its actually HIS wedding day?

wow

can i not get engage bcoz i hate hving all of u in my event

like

i

wan

my event

to b

nice

perfect

*plis dun show up n ruinin it for me me r not actually related aite if we r can we cut d tie?

seriously

IM ALL FOR NUCLEAR FAMILY

mom, dad, sister, in laws, bro, niece, nephew

ok done

n owh

my bf

do u hv to take all 15 villages of urs for our engagement day?

8x5 : 40 peoples = a bus

wow

so next time for d wedding

is 3 bus enough?

seriously

getting elope

sounds the right thing to do at this moments

plis

plis

im hopelessly romantic

i love romantic comedy

i dreamed about getting married n engage

i put my besh effort for this thingy

plis let it b right for me

u obviously doesnt wan my sour pissed face on our engagemnt day aite

MAKE IT RIGHT

4 cars r freaking enough

n

i dun wan stupid yapping people r talking about me

about this n that

i dun freaking cares

it wasnt ur freaking money

u have u precious children

yaps at their faces

not mine!

so honey

u

me

elope

songhkla

rita rudaini style!

im no longer interested in marriage

until i got my phone replacement :(

hello sy suka awk piere andre

saw him during lunch wif guppies at amcorp mall!