grUmble dung0en

09 january 2012

2012-01-08T23:48:00.001-08:00

please b nice

*update*

hello selangor?
with a wedding within a month?

happy new year :)

2012-01-03T20:01:00.001-08:00

its the 4th of jan :)

i cant wait

im waiting

counting days

11 feb 2012
come faster!

i never thought

2011-12-24T21:02:00.001-08:00

1.That one day i will end up being engaged to the guy i met at the odd place at the odd hour
2. That a guy called up his mom while on a first date and tell her that he is marrying me. AGAIN first date
3.That a guy cope up with my crazy behaviour, bought me the odd shoes i always wanted and laugh at my silly throwing fits acts.
4. That a guy defended me behind my back.
5. That a guy sing pink's "please dont leave me" because i didnt answer my phone after arguments

i better save the rest for later post
and super uber extremely hope ALLAH SWT bless our unity later

i love you my super policeman,,
now, wake up and reply my msg!

the war of the ring

2011-12-21T21:17:00.000-08:00

which one is the worst part?
getting marriage or the wedding
honestly i hv no idea

can i cry?
owh
im cryin
please and thank you

i know i told him i wan the gold wedding band

2011-12-18T02:36:00.000-08:00

n no more diamonds
but this is CHEAP and represent ME!

YES
keep lecture me how the gold can b trade n everything
but bitch look at youu
and look at me?
u dressed like my mom
n i dressed like me
capiche?

*yes will buy it wif my dowry booo*

i have a questions your honor,

2011-12-16T08:12:00.000-08:00

how are we judge ourself?
by the perspective of others or by our own evaluation?

well
since im getting married in couple of months *cue fireworks,marching bands,release those doves and throw the petals* **well kinda being self-absorbed this past few months sorry friends,**
i always get those comments like
"you getting married? owh are you like old enough for that?"
suck that up bitchie people im 24 this year~
might looks like 14 but yeah im 24

Thats the thing
i might acted like a giddy 15 years old gurl who thought Lady Gaga is a royal princess
but i think im matured enough to handle marriage life
people always referred me as the immature one
but honestly?
even when you are like 65, you will still have the craving to play swings with your grandchildren
If you are like TOTAL MATURE PERSON
you wont do any of those things
Thats where the terms YOUNG AT HEART comes
Just because i dress like a young adult,
Talk like a rejected cheer leader
It doesnt mean that i dunno how to handle myself

Like all the fruits and vegetables in the world
YOU CANT BE TOTAL MATURE or over ripe
because
if you goes over ripe
you'll be wilt or in malay LAYU
gone, ignored and cause food poisoning if been eaten
honestly do you wanna be like that?

So
If i said i wanna get married, *my parents beyond the approval, who else is paying for catering? do'oh*
ziplock you pretty little lips, erase your memory, stop the triggering urge to say
IM TOO YOUNG,IMMATURE TO HANDLE IT
Life works is very puzzling ways
Allah swt wants HIS servant to taste every peaks of love,happiness,hardship,bitterness
soo keep your opinion to yourself, unless you are paying for the wedding or the dowry
if not.. zip lock n wish me congratulation !

a couple of months

2011-12-15T05:28:00.000-08:00

to come :)

cant wait!

i am being nervous?

2011-12-10T14:12:00.001-08:00

i cant sleep, been tossing and turning for a while
the day is near
so near
went to measure the dress already
hurm
i think im fat
like uber fat
n i hv to do something bout that
ASAP
just another 60 days to go
gosh
i hope everything goes well according to the plan
honestly
without your own money
you could never really have the wedding of your dream
but honestly
i dont really care about the wedding
the marriage life is what i've been looking for :)
hope everything goes well

i feel fat
n i think i am
i dont feel confident about my body anymore
yup cliche
totally the 21st century teenagers sorta issues
but
honestly
its true

dear erma
please do something
its your body
shake it
keep it fit
take care of what your mama gave 'cha

in case i forget

2011-12-08T04:30:00.002-08:00

its the time of the yearrrrr
what i had accomplish in 2011 *twothousandeleven*

1)graduated weeeeeeeeeeeeee
2)engaged weeeeeeee
3)finally completed all the 16 states *is it?* in malaysia weeeeeeeeeeee
4) gain weight b0oooooooooooooooo
5) part time job weeeeeeeeeeeeee *6 days je pont*

hello today is 11/11/11

2011-11-11T01:14:00.000-08:00

im 24 years old
still charming as hell
gained weight :47kg now *fuck me*
same height : 150 cm
engaged to be married <3

bye

mommy always right

2011-11-04T06:28:00.000-07:00

even though it devastating but its true :'(

he did go back to his hometown for my bday
since its aidiladha... n his dad not home :'(

i think im inside depression phase of life
everything makes me depress
haisyh

hopping for the best

six more days

2011-09-23T07:24:00.000-07:00

for me to meet my craziest babes collecting robe + having wild time wif them

CANT WAIT

walaupun mrh tetap usha wedding band

2011-08-28T11:14:00.000-07:00

i know i hv flaws

2011-08-28T03:13:00.000-07:00

too many flaws
im not a perfect daughter to my parents
i dont really obey their nstruction
i talk back sometimes when i felt the need to defend myself
but
i will
never
ever
treat my parents
they way she n he treated mine
i had it
its beyond annoying
frustrating
i know once we are married
we need to obey our hubby
but not all the rules
if the rules making our mother's heart breaking into a thousand pieces
stop
drop
and gone
u really hate the way my parents still show their affections towards them
honestly
where did you put ur empathy
dont you fell the burn of your since inside you heart?

wedding and a marriage

2011-08-27T00:05:00.000-07:00

wedding is the celebrating of a marriage

right now
im more into marriage than a wedding
i know it might come across as a shock for people since i kinda the one who adore wedding
but honestly
i kinda hate the hustle bustle of a wedding
i just wanna b his wife
a legal in both religious and law

what say you?

do you ever have

2011-08-26T11:46:00.000-07:00

a twitter hater? well now i do
y?
bcoz i tweet sumthing about KPLI being suck at teaching *they do* to Dr Wee Ka Siong
n he replied *full of annoyance i might add*
the come this girldude who bashed me
the saying something bout the KPLI work their arse off
like for A YEAR? ok full stop
soo we come into argument
she made peace offering which i refuse since she blame me for "now he wont help us anymore"
which was beyond ridiculous since i tweeted n say sorry to dr wee n he said its ok

owh yeah, after dr wee replied me, she said sumthing like "i wanna make peace, lets work together yadayadayadaya yapping bout sumthing,, but WHO NEEDS A PHONY? she created fake acc just to contact dr wee? talking bout irresponsible bitch
and claiming my frens n i bashing her?
DUDE i hv B.Ed u hv B.Sc soo y dont you go and sit at the back table of cafeteria where you belong??
as much i hate cohort 4, but we did stick together

that bitch is annoying
besh of luck writing to the DPM
cohort 4 insider hv the info already
you guys dont
bcoz KPLI is a bunch of freaks
bye
i hate u
i wanna punch ur gut
*taking off my earring*

today is 19th july

2011-07-18T23:36:00.000-07:00

n im bored
like dead bored
honestly
like bore, boring, and bored
it is like the super duper boredom the universe have ever seem
simply
BORED TO DEATH
*end of my definition of boredom*

i miss my fiance
like seriously missing
like a kitty miss it's momma bcoz its a feeding time
yeah
like missing him too much

and i feel likes im a fatty
like fat fat not phat fat
like fatty moi
n my sister is like im not fat untill i gv birth to my second child
like, yeah and now u r fat arent you? and im like fat fat

gosh i hate my life

alhamdulillah

2011-07-07T08:20:00.000-07:00

humbling over the gift given by the ALLAH swt the almighty
simply because

IM GRADUATING IN OCT
*Que. fireworks, flower bouquet flush toys overflow*

thank you

lets pretend baby

2011-06-17T11:06:00.000-07:00

that you've just met me
and i never seen you before

and i wanna falls in love with you again
i dont have to try, it so easy
who needs to pretend?

im tired n missing everyone, listening to all sort of cute song

2011-06-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

i might steal your clothes and wear them if they fits me

2011-06-14T10:45:00.001-07:00

KUALA TERENGGANU

i know i might feels miserable there when i reach there
but i kinda love goin there
i love the journey with him
i love the time we spent on the sand
i love it when he took me to go and eat something he love
bcoz i love spending time with him :)

goin there on 17th june
hope to be home before 22nd
mummy is back
i miss her soo much :(
i miss home
i love my home
i love being there

last post 15 feb 2011

2011-06-13T03:18:00.000-07:00

bwahahahah it was waaaayy to long
im bored
finally done wif my 6 years of study
passed my final
now need to pay up n show up for my
FREAKING GRADUATION DAY

reading through the tweets
reflecting my past
eliminating facts that annoyed me
yeah im fine
got lotta things to talk about
lets start with LIFE LOVE and DEVELOPMENT

ive been in relationship like many many times
since primary school *lets say im very fastbloomer*
it is not love
it is relationship
real simple
no biggie
still friends with him until now
stilll hangin out with him when we both back in town
until...
my fiance say no
i was like
hurm.... talk to him bout it later

secondary school
these is the period for me of growing up
still have my baby dressing up weirdly
*not appriciate it at all*
my first boyfriend hurm form 5 i think
yup
we share same name :P met at the camp
hey im cute wokay!
hahah still friend and he is big now
like real big

1st real relationship
wow
history a made for us to learn aite
not saying much bcoz people might assume im still in love with him or whatever *puke
i turn bitter after this relationship
maybe because sense of betrayer and others seems to think im the wrong one
i dont really care but i just want people who assume im the acid n turn into the bad character something to ponder on
"i might b bitchy and express my discomfort /opinion freely, but have i ever act orsays something stupid that creates the whose chaotic atmosphere? did i ever ask you guys for opinion? and if you guys gv some do i bluntly rejected that?"
please before pointing finger, please analyze me and his behaviour, pick which u prefer i dont gv a damn "

2nd real relationship *owh no we engaged now weeeeeeee*
before i starts this relationship after 1 year i think is it? i've been playing around the fields
and i found one on the most un-expected place
i dnt really count on it at first
but his determination ,and the way he treated me change all that
yeah my mum n sis kinda against it at first
as rebel as i am
i was like who cares:P
he made me happy :)
things grows bigger and better
maybe because we dont try hard,
we grown up together
learning bout each other
what i really like about him
he doesnt hate my ability of instant changing of facial expression
hahahhahahah he knows me
he pampered me
well i pampered his as well because he is like a sick kitten
n i love him
n his mom love me :P
and i love trganus food :P

based on experiences and collective comments bout my relationship
most of my bf usually
a)pampered me maybe im such a manja girl and they continue doing that
b) shower me lotta of their state speciality foods -kopok lekor,jeruk,ikanpekasam
c)as annoying as i am, they usually didnt ignore me, a'aa kn even when we broken up the awkward period, they at least replied my text hurm,, wif my fiance , longest time of no speaking*cold war i call it cold war* is 2 days, communication is vital for me, because IF U DOESNT LOVE ME PLEASE AT LEAST TELL ME BOUT IT
when u didnt call or answer i will think u 1)die 2)lost your phone and i always hv 2 so u can hv 1
d)just dont be mean to me, bcoz i will b better bitch than you, honestly you really dont like it when i hate you because my words are vicious

yeah i grow up
leaving my cohort with longer list of people i wish i do not see their face anymore than people i will invite to my wedding list
bcoz growing up
makes u athinker
you will choose to be around people who gv positive energy to you
why would u waste your time pretending liking those other people
because once u reach school
you will hv another soo shorter the list of people to b nice with
because u hv longer period and place to fill in

im jackpot but

2011-02-15T08:54:00.001-08:00

IM DARN LUCKY

having

a fiance

great funny frens

n lotta pink pressie

i love being moise

thank u people <3

dear mr v day

2011-02-14T23:56:00.000-08:00

i dunno y

i always like u

since i hit puberty until now

you always b my fav

maybe it because u always be consistence

coming on the dot

every year

without skipping a beat

ur power amazed me

u makes the price of certain thing gone sky high

only the chosen one, usually the pinky one

every display window turns pink

cupid flying around

heart scattered around in every different form u can imagine

flowers never smells better

the fluffiest teddy bear seems emerging from every conner

people seems to smile n giggles a lot more

chick flicks and romantic comedy conquering the cinema

my bf oppsie fiance heavy metal heart seems to melt a bit

im happy

i love u mr vday

u seems to create my ideal world for a day

even though those sum hater spreading bad things about u

forget the hater

they need purpose in their life

n they choose to hate u

its post vday in my time zone

but i know across the atlantic

sumones hearts metled

faces r brighter and

smiley is the IT accessory :)

happy v day

please don change

i will wait for u again next year

happy vday my fren

fafa riena kinut syima didie nadia choki and all *celus org pas dia x celebrate vday*

i love u all

thanks for sharing the love with me tooo :)

can we juz elope

2011-01-28T10:21:00.001-08:00

bcoz i hates people

old people who suppose to be "adik bradik" "kwn baik" our parents

like OMG

r u sure u need to b here

do ever utter a single complete sentence to my bro?

wait

do u know its actually HIS wedding day?

wow

can i not get engage bcoz i hate hving all of u in my event

wan

my event

to b

nice

perfect

*plis dun show up n ruinin it for me me r not actually related aite if we r can we cut d tie?

seriously

IM ALL FOR NUCLEAR FAMILY

mom, dad, sister, in laws, bro, niece, nephew

ok done

n owh

my bf

do u hv to take all 15 villages of urs for our engagement day?

8x5 : 40 peoples = a bus

wow

so next time for d wedding

is 3 bus enough?

seriously

getting elope

sounds the right thing to do at this moments

plis

im hopelessly romantic

i love romantic comedy

i dreamed about getting married n engage

i put my besh effort for this thingy

plis let it b right for me

u obviously doesnt wan my sour pissed face on our engagemnt day aite

MAKE IT RIGHT

4 cars r freaking enough

i dun wan stupid yapping people r talking about me

about this n that

i dun freaking cares

it wasnt ur freaking money

u have u precious children

yaps at their faces

not mine!

so honey

elope

songhkla

rita rudaini style!

im no longer interested in marriage

2011-01-08T05:57:00.000-08:00

until i got my phone replacement :(

hello sy suka awk piere andre

2011-01-05T07:37:00.000-08:00

saw him during lunch wif guppies at amcorp mall!

ohhh i always fancy him

2010-12-19T12:11:00.000-08:00

kian egan

rs amat fuck sekali

2010-12-12T16:33:00.000-08:00

when u call ur parents

they asked whether u asking for more money

n saying they hv none

ok aku amat terasa this time

fine

i went to uk wif no MONEY AT ALL

ada x sampai 500 dlm bsn

n 540 dlm cimb

DATS FREAKING ALL

fine

bkn nk ckp apa

since i enrolled in thirtier education

most of my expends

comes from my own freaking pocket

n only when i moved in wif my sis

which all of my siblings finished their undergrad study

then

baru my dad pay for my freaking rent

b4 dat

its all my money

wif weekly allowance 150

or occasionally xtra money

dats FREAKING all

ok saket sgt

hati ok

i even pay for my own car

but for diz dec payment

i hv no more freaking money

since all my money finish here

soo cam mna nk bayar duet keta

who cares

tarik la keta tu

fuck off

i freaking doesnt mind any more

*didie plis tumpang g klass nnt :(*

ok rs fuck sgt

aku jgn susahkn diorg

abehkn duet kasi org

pegi travell

4- 5 juta kali

langsung x ajak aku n leave me

then ckp x da duet

fine

mayb i pull an arvind

skip this freaking last sem

n work my ass off

bcoz my parents happen hv no money left for MOI

fine

kawen jew

by kawen

akad nikah

who cares about d wedding

i juz meet them up at chillies

everyone pay for their own food

i'll bake a cake or sumthing

there goes my wedding

yes honey

i freaking dont mind

at least u can pay for our flat

i might b afraid or mouse n those smell

but i'll adapt it later

if ur parents wanna thrown a wedding for us

fine by me

it juz my parents happen to hv no freaking money for me

love u

love my parents too

but they can keep their freaking money

i.love.you

2010-12-09T19:54:00.000-08:00

so much

it hurts soo bad when we r not together

i love

2010-11-28T13:32:00.000-08:00

shopping

n eating

frost bites

2010-11-24T01:09:00.000-08:00

bites me!

feels like im juz step in roald dalh house of fantasy!

2010-11-22T03:12:00.000-08:00

love it here

d weather is solum like always

foggy n cold

hell

it europe

the nation of whitie *dats d reason vampire from europe not california!*

love love love it here

putting all my fat in good use

my sis house is far away from the lil cottage i adore lining up d highway

spotted hills n mountain sound of music look a like

dayummmmmmmmmmmmmm

its darn cute

salmon pink wall in ma room wif white finish

adoring the cute door knob!

brass a lil bit higher but the door top isnt proportional

dats y the idea of roald dahl house of fantasy appear

u know

long legs

short body

its coming handyyyyyyy

lookin forward to LUSH shop

OMG OMG

can wait!

c ya later

lets pray for allah swt blessing

2010-11-20T07:55:00.000-08:00

maybe

13th feb 2011 :)

been bz

2010-11-10T05:59:00.000-08:00

kl to malacca to kedah to penang

ok
i juz wanna go back n sleep on my *i hope its not soaking* bed
i miss my home
but allah always hv a better plan n only test its follower bcoz he know we r strong enough
*mummy i wan a new house we make it like 4 feet above the ground plis!*

yes
SAYA MANGSA BANJIR

hello

2010-10-20T09:35:00.001-07:00

im freaking sad
thats all

because each of us r different

2010-10-14T02:59:00.000-07:00

different background
different family
different history
different life
but
sumthing similar between us
thats what makes us together
click
it wasnt sharing something
but similar
familiarity

lets talk about love
i think im blessed with my current status of relationship
enough to make me stop by for a moment
to ponder about it
but once
my fren said to me
i had my share of tumbling n chaotic relationship
n allah swt gvs me a lovely one
it runs smoothly
this time
eventhough the early period was kinda hard
which people judgin
assuming
since i jump out of my comfort wagon
into a new and foreign wagon
his life n mine
is totally not the same ship
but now i think we manage to tolerate
tone down
n grow up
together
but im only human
i still hv doubt
hope

my fren
having their moment of bliss too
they hv their own situation
they way they handle it
n i know its the happiness
is what we looking for
to kinut
i dunno why
but i think u n syuk syuk
is meant to be together :) stay strong
n don watch long distance film
believe in him n ur relationship
to nadia
u dont hv to worry
u r soo lucky to hv him
as u said
he is the gurl
no doubt bout the loyalty there
one day
you two will b in one place again!
fazeah mansor
u r one quite complicated relationship
as u said
jus accept wut u have now
if the future is a torture
y bother thinkin bout it
yet
honey we r 23
juz dun forget about it
syim
tlg kawen
enough
riena n naqib
dun get marry together
i need my didie
others
hv a gr8 life

soo sorry to talk about all of u
it juz i misses u :P

a quickie

2010-10-12T04:05:00.001-07:00

no
not quickie in the toilet
A quickie on july till dec!

-started and recently ended my teaching practice weeeeeee boo ya SEKSA i freaking hates u
-this is my 1st sem of FINAL YEAR omaifuckingawdomaifuckingawdomaifuckingawd
-owh yea after 5 years i started driving againnn n my bf is my worst critic n enemy n my didie is my vertebrate
*sneeezzzee is this blog soo dusty? kinda if anyone EVER open it?*
-PARAMORE concert next weekkkk say YEAH!
-goin away this nov awayyyyyy destination SECRET!
-if everything went well as planned i might hv BIG by dat i mean huge, gigantic enormous NEWS *pray for it :)*
ding ding ding ding ding *gigantic grins ova my face alert!*

ok
later
bitches
by that i mean the two of u that actually read my blog!
p/s : thank you n i love u gladly leave me ur address so i can post u some pressie *kitkat would b fine aite?*

my fave ever

2010-10-08T07:54:00.001-07:00

once upon a december mp3s
download FREE music

this is like my fav ever song on earth
if i am destined to b princess
i juz wanna b anastacia
the great mysterious anastacia

2010-09-26T07:34:00.000-07:00

i kinda like this one, simple, suitable for merisik aite?

2 month after

2010-09-26T07:08:00.000-07:00

i feel the need to blog after i saw last post was on 26th july

this is da last week of teaching practicum or

TP as we affectionately called.

yesterday in the shower * i do most of thinking in the shower*

i thought about my experience there

n y i wasnt dat sad leaving da school

compared to previous sop n sep eventhough its like for 2 weeks

but my affection was taken to respective school

but not here

na ah

not SEKSA

then it hit me

the first week experience

seriously is to hear to bare

we r treated unfairly

just because we r from UM

which is silly since we spent 4 years in IPIK

but then

teachers there r not as open as they should b

well wut can i say

insecurity trumps morality

nvm

i'll b waving bubbye soon

mayb on the friday b4 i go back i push all the stuff from gg taring table

or draw on her table "ur previous mentee from teknik is one lazy n fat arse" "there are none course for KH teacher ever in uni dats y u stuck in maktab!" "wut? u32? well my first payroll is 41! suck on it!"

or i can go to mr azim face 'u suck u know dat? n ur daughter is not so cute (ok this is mean)"

nvm

mayb i juz go back n snatch my tudung infront of school yard

ok dats uber dramatic!

hahhahahahahahha

okies

besh of luck for all cohort 4

trumps it hard~!

because im in the mood

2010-07-26T05:02:00.000-07:00

so does him

in fact he is d one who triggers it

i dun wan princess cut

its common

i dun wan yellow gold

even if we can pawn it

but its my ring i wanna keep it n gv to my daughter even if we r not together

i wanna keep it in my legacy

i wan sumthing evergreen

i dun wan it cost to much

i wan it to be special

bt i think i need 3 rings :P

white gold plain band

white gold wif lil diamonds encrusted

platinum wif square cut in the mindle

being wif u

is more than enough :)

what would you do when

2010-07-12T08:04:00.000-07:00

your whole life seems like crashing into pieces

you hv no clue wut r u doing

you in this alien enviroment

my solution for all that

CRYING LIKE A BABY ON HIS LAP!

works like a charms
juz cry cry cry
now im sleepy

liebe deucthland

2010-07-07T04:40:00.000-07:00

ok this kinda nervous
more nervous than
argentina vs germany
bcoz
based on previous game
spain outwin germany

either way
im still deucthland supporter

liebe deucthland
gluck germany

*update : germany lost
ok fine
better luck next time

ahaaaaaaa

2010-06-29T09:30:00.000-07:00

lets start this entree wif curse
lots of curse

fucking annoying bcoz its really suck!

whoever thought hvin gurls is easy
no its not
if u are married
i advice u
concieve a BOY
bcoz all i should do after 5 years
buy bikes
gv money
set curfew
they might broke it
but who cares
set up punishment later

u nva worried about
getting pregnant
kidnapp
cat fight

having 3 older sister
IS A PAIN IN ASS

its kinda fucking annoying when
they all concern about u
freaking fuckin annoyin
can u juz let me learn from my mistakes?
let me do one mistakes!

its fucking annoying i tell u
since they rather spend times worrying about u moving in wif stranger more than their phd thesis
or ur boyfren back ground more than they having one

for goodness sakes
let me learn it!
u got ur moment
n u've finish it
let me hv my moment!

fuck fuck fuck fuck

im past 21
its fucking my call!

its not like i dun love u

2010-06-28T01:04:00.000-07:00

it juz im having a hard time consuming it

:(

its my fault
i deserve it
but being yell out
from u for the first time
is heartbreaking
changing my views on u
when u talk to me
i had goosebumb
cold hands

bcoz i really scared

scared to death

i know it wasnt intentional
n u apologizing
but
its creeps out of me
im sorry
i love u
but im scared of u
its d one thing u've done
but it gv
major impact

juz gv me time to re adjust
i love u
soo much

thank you

when sumone u love die

2010-06-09T05:30:00.000-07:00

at least the love is still there
eventhough the body is gone
but
u know
the spirits n soul still loving you

how about when they still here
u can hear them
touches them
just the body
but u know
the love wasnt there
feels like the mutual feeling
adult responsibility
self respect n respect towards others
care
love
tenderness
wasnt there anymore

thank god im over 21
graduates
moves out
celebrating holiday alone
isnt it less heartbroken?

no matter

2010-06-09T03:48:00.000-07:00

how hard
how sincere
i could neva be the good one

always b the one problematic one
the disturbed one
the stupid one

n will ever b that way

no matter how far u step up
build up
i could nevar b the better one

maybe i should just stop trying

yeah
maybe in the future
i build up my family
the nuclear family
when i gets old
plis leave me in retirement home
i'll b fine

you know wut?

2010-05-02T10:09:00.000-07:00

im had it

im always trying to be the nice one
follow every freaking things they says
study quite hard to maintanin my grade
b nice
nva shout at them n all
n
yet im always b the wild one
im freaking wild
always on the loose
always go out n hits the club
am always gonna b the crap

soo i decide
if this freaking things happens again
that so called warning
im soo not goin back to alor star ever
even if my bf left me
im freaking tired of it
yeah
they paid my rent
not bcoz i asked them too
they offer!
they offer me a car
if this car gonna cost me my freedom
i dun want it
they can have it
bcoz im soo tired of it
if i ever heard those fucking things about
me ot allowed goin out at night
thos efucking thing im the bad gurl
im soo gonna flip again
fucking throwing a fit
i nva wanna go back home again
because it fucking hurtful
its like they could never trust me
fucking stupid
my fucking sister
who turning this house into my jail cell
is fucking hypocryte
u bitch
its not like u r erfect
acting goodie two shoes infront my parent
u r fucking stupid
if exhibits my flaws making u happy
then b it loser
u r fucking annoyin
always minglin in my business
if ur life is fucking horrifying
stop torturing mine

if my dad continue
making those accusation
im fucking not goin home
keep those damn car
i'll survive

owh yes

2010-04-16T23:41:00.000-07:00

hello
im here
im doing nuthing
eventhough massive mess on my bed
n 0.5 mm dust over my floor

my family juz went back last nuit
a lil visit here
n so did surprise visit from mr policeman last nuit :P
meheartyoutooyayang :)

being lazy bum is kinda fun :)

i.wan.i.need.i.hope.i.dreamt.

2010-04-05T06:20:00.000-07:00

latest obsession!!!

y it juz came out in 2009? when i was 22? y it wasnt there when i was 12??
pity my barbie for all the stitches!

of thissss

owh i nearly forget

2010-04-04T09:51:00.000-07:00

well i did enroll in magazine publishing this sem
turn out didie and choki turn their back on 1001 computers n enroll in mag pub
n yes
soo is wenquq tua

in the end we end up publishing this mag,,,

yeah its kewl
i know

:)
made frens will fellow editors
they r awesome
even though lack of interaction
but on the last day

on ko k
it was gr8
:)

truth hurt

2010-04-02T19:24:00.000-07:00

sometimes
when u learnt sumthing
dat really crashes ur heart
but u can do nuthing about it
even the comfort given its not enough

all you wanna do is cry
cry
cry

all thing taste bitter

bcoz sumtimes
people tends not to appreciates
when the love ones gv sumthing
we mislooked it
without thinkin about wut they feels

but when the wheels rotate
you fills in the shoes
that u feels
how simple thing could make u weeps

big time

this bz day

2010-03-11T20:18:00.000-08:00

goin to b
n i havent showered yet
clean up n tidy my room : done
wash all those clothes : done
breakfast brunch and lunch : done
* i made tomato garlic pasta today n i admit i do cook good stuff *

16th march : due date for ethics got the book havent starts yet
24th march : due date for magazine ok it can be done no probs
31st march : due date for historical n cultural of science got materials already
24 & 25th march : those silly apk fest im selling stuff BORINK DRAMA ANNOYED

looks like im on the right track
mayb i should ask hayat for his asgment
muahahhahahahhahahahahha

lets shower shall we?

dear celcom BIS

2010-03-06T19:33:00.001-08:00

u sux
to the max

thank you

penat x

2010-02-28T03:35:00.000-08:00

klau asyik nk ikut dier
klau asyik dengaq dia ckp benda yg same
klau asyik ckp ckp benda yg sma
tp end up sorg gak

rsnya
its not too late to create new resolution
mine is
sy rs sy x maw kawen laaa
x payah pikir nk jaga org
nk ikut ckp org
nk dengaq apa dia nk ckp
nk senyum even though menyampah dgr apa kwn dia ckp sbb either x phm ataw its nonsense?

my new idol
is no longer katy perry or lady gaga
ada ada dengan dorg
duet?
gosh
my new idol is an old lady yg idup sorg bersama 27 ekor kucing kucing dier
sbb dia independent
suma dia wat sendiri
drive g bli friekies
bli baju sendiri
sbb dlm idup nie
nk harap org susah
eventhough org tu ckp
u dont need cars.. i can take u everywhere
or adik nk bwat apa keta g klass pong *l*** hantar
but whenever i really need them
owh.. rs mcm x sehat laaa
or i got things to do
end up
menyusahkn org laen
igt besh ka mx tlg org?
mmg laa benda kecik
tp klau slalu sgt
org pont muntah ok

so better b independent
naek taxi?
i dun mind but later i will get lectured...
klau kna culik mcm mna?
klau kena ragut mcm mna
bley sy jwp soalan tu skunk?

mind ur own bussiness
suka ati aku laa weyh
mx tlg mcm2 alasan!
laen kali klau aku ckp i need car
u better shut ur fucking mouth

rs mcm fuck
rs mcm bodo
sbb ikut ckp mak bapak
sbb kdg2 mak bpk percaya ckp
org yg bodo pandai blakon
in the end
i'll end up alone
best kan?
ada bf pont rs mcm suck
pegi mampos suma org
biaq aku jewww
everything happen mmg kwn aku bley tlg
tp aku bkn tangugjawap dorg
soo klau x bleu nk bertangungjawap
jgn offer apa2 dari mula
sedaq diri weyh
sapa hipokrit
soo wut aku x pkai tudung kt sni
mak bpk aku dh taw
daripd ank yg balik umah bwat mcm
omg im soo perfect
everyone is darn stupid
sooo stop acting like a saint when u obviously nuthing
it is not a good thing tp put people down juz because they r better than u

rs mcm fucking
saket ati n penat nanges ari2
sbb saket hati

thank you

2010-02-27T07:05:00.000-08:00

for giving me everything
n snatch it back in front me
no more promises
no more pretending you r the best gurl
bcoz frankly
u r plainly self centered
ur lil role play always makes me sick
you cover up
always disgusted me

im not perfect
but i never pretended to b one
im a bitch
but i dun hide the fact
i dun kissed up
i dun threat others like they r matter juz
to ignore them later

simply
im fucking tired to witness it

r u serious?

2010-02-22T10:25:00.000-08:00

ok this is the first

2010-02-11T18:41:00.000-08:00

TIME

im meeting my bf's family
omg
owh
my
freaking
gawd

nervous till the part i cant think anymoreeee

for the kiss up part already done the deeds
bought bracelet for them
*i know im gewd!*

soo keeps my fingers crossing
wishing me the best!!!!
tganu
here i come!

you'll b the prince n i'll b the princess

2010-02-04T23:00:00.000-08:00

yes syg
thank you
yes u did win my heart all over again

duncha juz lurve how materialistic i am?

thanx a lot for treatin me like that...

did any of my frens tips u on that ?

muahx muahx muahx
thank you
love u <3

maybe im not soo into you

2010-01-31T06:21:00.000-08:00

or maybe i juz dont love u as much as i thought i am

or maybe its nervous talkin

or maybe its another "im so happy i could die" moment

i dunno

im sorry
sumtimes my †hought are mixed up with my emotion
thanx for showin me those pictures
sooo cute
i feels like pukin n thinkin dat u might not change

sumtimes

2010-01-26T05:13:00.000-08:00

it freaks me out how happy i am
bcoz when life is full of joy
a bell rings
the flash back of hardness come out

i used to b happy in love
then the hope was crashed
n now i found new one
which also sounds promising
but
it kinda freaks me out
if maybe his love will decrease
when im increasing
bcoz i can learn to love
but what happen if our loves one changed
waking up without the urge to love me
lost interest in holding my hands

isnt it kinda bummer?
no
its not like im still hooked up with him
but as we understand
history is a reminder
that things is happening
war can be repeated
maybe things is like
the sweet summer
but we never knew when the sun will stop shinning?
or the wind went over blow?
its the hardest thing
when u have to accept
the person who is in love with u yesterday
juz
wasnt anymore
bcoz we cannot simply force people to love us
stop them from taking back their love
feeling is like an art
feeling is abstract
sum people might see it
sum people are juz dont

yes im in germany
but i juz cant take him back from france
but people are juz people
we changed
i changed
bcoz when we try sumthing that we thinks
its kinda bad previously
we experience it
n either change or stay on our opinion
arent we?
yes we r
maybe we didnt see it
but others will......

it juz dat
im not perfect
you r not perfect
i know ur flaws
u known mine
i dun mine urs
soo far u seems lurve my flaws
n i hope its for a long time
bcoz im keen being with u for a long time
i dun mind seeing ur big belly in the future
or sweepin off ur hair on the floor
or cryin over ur mis-words
bcoz ur flaws facinates me
my flaws makes ur laugh
n i like it....

*im period soo im emotic soo i dun care puke or what handle with ur own care :P*

is ur mama a llma?

2010-01-25T08:41:00.000-08:00

hurm....
i dunno
is it my weakness
or it kinda a gift
or its the result of reading too much romantic n chic lit books
i think im easy to falls for sumone
n this time
i hope
it is the one....
like im kinda old
to start floating around
finding the electric sparks
or ionized against the others

its sorta complicated
but its complication makes me wanna work more n yes im not working alone,,,,
like TOKIO MOTEL sang : its automatic ok!
hahahha
*yeah i like their song*

n yeah
we hv plans
for us
n its not juz an empty one
both or us working on it

but sumtimes
its kinda freaks me out
it sumthing happens
bcoz its juz life
it will not always b easy peasie
but i kinda like the idea of it :P

yeah dear
i let you slay my dragon
bcoz u r my knight in hot policeman suits :P
i might hv no idea wut ur frenz r saying and
you might have no idea what my frenz are laughing about
but its ok behind the close door
we hv our own lil language
u might b silly at times
but ur innocents makes me melts
and i might b crazier than the cat lady
but i know u adore me for that :P
thanx for everything
i don mind jumping up for u
as long u dont mind falling down with me

loves u mr wolverine
xoxoxo

*for those happens to read this post
puking and nauseating is the result after reading
dun worry i dun mind :P*

its been a while...

2010-01-25T04:15:00.000-08:00

since my last post
dunno y
im not dat bz
mayb lazy
yaaaa dats kinda true

but lately i've been too tired
4 days per weeks kinda tiresome :(

ok.....

such a lil bitch

2010-01-12T05:58:00.001-08:00

click it

i know
i even hv tee to proves it

ok this is new

2010-01-11T10:09:00.001-08:00

* click to enlarge *

kinda creative pick up lines
duncha think?

and yes

2010-01-08T19:25:00.000-08:00

another reason y i extremely loves paris

juz a phone call away

2010-01-07T08:04:00.000-08:00

thanx alexander graham bell
u r hot!

n right now
the sun is shining the right way
the shadow falls down on the right spot
flowers r blooming on the right day and location
scents of love n lullaby is around

simply bcoz im in love
*again*

thanx to the creation of telephone
n the revolution by mr motorola
u n me
we r meant to be :P

*read the article in GQ here*

mode : content

2010-01-04T04:02:00.000-08:00

life is like a struggling fishing reel

one moment we felt like we had it
one moment we fought hard not to lose it
then suddenly its gone
then we try a new bait
hoping the new bait would bring us happiness

owh yeah

2010-01-03T09:01:00.000-08:00

we both r still the rockstar

my divaness only can be tame by him

totally not breaking up :P
juz me being
hopelessly romantic
n uberly sensitive when my dreams or plan were crash

still me n mr policeman :P

i always say how i dun need bur it always come back right to this

2010-01-02T04:30:00.000-08:00

owh
owh
owh
broken heart : round two

well this time
i hope it will b a lot better
since we r from two diff area
n i dun think
i'll b sein his figure
or glimpse of him in the future

OK thats the gr8 thing of dating the outsider
plz dun leae me currently monopolized my itunes
over n over again

well the main point
WHOSE TO BLAME

this time i can proundly admit
its me
yeah
mayb he is done
totally done wif my tantrum
yeah
we are from two different situation
hello still
hello quite
hello sadness
welcome back
kiss.kiss.kiss
we gonna rock this town

so0
the thing bout me n mr policeman
is history
so0 i back to normal
i guess

ok consollin my heart time
till we meet again =)

the other days is not so0 nice

2009-12-30T05:42:00.000-08:00

*my sc lecturer totally reminds me of ghandi or dat professor in futurama*

wel got not one but
TWO lecturer from india
so0 kinda hard to understand them
haisyh...
n this one stout-y lecturer that teach sc

work
hard
ass baby~

*update*
special caricature from a fren of mine

http://isaacismael87.wordpress.com/

the first day of sem is

2009-12-28T04:04:00.000-08:00

AWESOME
my lecturer dr thomas lahei is awesome
n yes nut
he played ukelele
create song wif it sumore
here some of the evidence

isnt learning is amazing?
TOTALLY

AVATAR

2009-12-25T23:11:00.000-08:00

its been like overused of word

i knoe wut its means
content wise
but cant seem to put in complete sentence
literally wide i kinda fluck
so0 i too the liberty to open the
world famous sought after dictionary WIKIPEDIA
*opened my oxford already but it wasnt there*

1- Avatar is a Hindu term for the manifestation or appearance of a deity.

2- Avatar (computing), the graphical representation of a user

ok i pick the second terms

SEX N THE CITY 2

2009-12-23T23:13:00.000-08:00

should i be thrill??

OF COURSE!!

Sex and the City 2 in HD

Trailer Park | MySpace Video

stealing sumthing dats legal :P

2009-12-23T04:02:00.000-08:00

***********FOOD-OLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?
[simple ranch mayb juz vinegar n olive oil]

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
[nowdays im crazy bout chillies n yes pizza john n sweet chat is awesome to0]

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
[totally subway healthy n delish]

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
[simple meaty stuff wif olive i adore olive]

What do you like to put on your toast?
[simple melted butter yes the salty one!]

**********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many television sets are in your house?
[we got 2 here in kl]

What color of cell phone do you have?
[black yes i remain mysterious wif my cellphone :P]

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
[right-ie me:D]

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
[nope]

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
[yes mattress,, the big queen all by my self]

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
[yes hunny bee by u muah muah]

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
[i dunno im not sure.....]

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
[nope im perfectly fine wif my name it defines me!]

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
[not! hahahha ]

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
[now one not very fans of it]

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
[i wish i hv it everyday!!! off duty that is :P]

Last person you talked to?
[owh abg mcd who looks a bit like pharrell]

Last person you hugged?
[ehemmm hem]

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
[im hopelessly romantic obviously autumn!]

Holiday?
[summer at the beach wif straww hat sipping cold coconut]

Day of the week?
[lalallalalla]

Month?
[november is awesome!]

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?
[i do miss those lil people who adores me:P]

Mood?
[happily munching my curly fries ]

What are you listening to?
[britney : sometimes]

Watching?
[screeennn]

Worrying about?
[my itchy legs]

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
[toilet of course]

What's the last movie you saw?
[the proposal last nite]

Do you smile often?
[i got smile linessss]

Do you always answer your phone?
[i screened :P]

It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
[my crazy didie or my wut-r-u-doin-up boo]

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
[i like my dark midnite black eyes its mysteriously sexy]

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
[sonic is?]

Do you own a digital camera?
[no i dun i dun really like compact except lumix l3 :P]

Have you ever had a pet fish?
[yes i used to0]

7) Favorite Christmas song?
[jinggle bell rocks!]

What's on your wish list for your birthday?
[lots i still hvnt got my blythe!]

Can you do push ups?
[yes!]

Can you do a chin up?
[a bit i dun hv upper body challenged ok!]

Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
[kinda excited]

Do you have any saved text messages?

*nope i dun have one....huhu

Ever been in a car wreck?
[nope nope]

Do you have an accent?
[nope nope]

What is the last song to make you cry?
[i dunno]

Plans tonight?
[90210 yal!!]

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
[yeah i did n yes it is not a gr8 thing]

Name 3 things you bought in the last week
[mcd cookies starbuck]

Have you ever been given roses?
[yeah i did several times]

Current worry?
[pimple n tigh!]

Current hate right now?
[pimple!]

Met someone who changed your life?
[we go together hand n hand]

How did you bring in the New Year!
[not sure yet ]

What song represents you now?
[bathwater nodoubt :P]

Name three people who might complete this?
[u me they]

What were you doing at 12 AM last night?
[watch movie]

What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
[wut is the time?]

days

2009-12-23T03:22:00.000-08:00

at one moment i hope i goes faster

at another moment i hope it stops

yes im weird

but can friday puhliss be hurry

i wanna hang out my bo0o

*kissie kissie face* <3<3<3

miss u

new sem is coming right up

im juz

content

not to0 happy neither to0 sad

the new year is coming

i have nuthing up in ma sleeves

last year we hang at kak hanim's

diz year i hvnt decide yet

yes

my sis make it clear for me not to go out :P

so0 i might bringin party back :P

nut suggested

simple bbq at mine

*i know she got to0 carzy wif my house hahhahaha*

kinda do-able

since it juz us

maybe can invite naem syah nic didie n ch0ke

they can sleep over at syah's afterward

*note : diz it is juz a plan i hvnt ask any of them yet :p*

i dunno yet since i hv to ask other first

or maybe juz 2-3 person

owh yes at my party u can bring ur plus one :P

yeah gtg

dats all i can write about right now

since i practicallu did nuthing today :D

my new gorgeous ro0m

2009-12-22T04:11:00.000-08:00

new sem

new room

not finish yet

to0 excited to share

and the fy2169 is landed

2009-12-18T22:27:00.000-08:00

this entry is all about RAGE
y?
here is y

strollin along the hallway
cligin on my hp n tap the butt0n "call"

can u took a taxi back? i juz woke up

wut da FUCK?

*dialogue may hv been amend but still got the main point*

thanx dear u really trigger my excitement to meet u

when the lust strikes in

2009-11-28T04:12:00.000-08:00

1-

2-

3-

4- ofcourse this one
click here

5-and lots and lots and lots of this
starbucks!!
*i need new planner btw :P*

december dont be late,,,,,

today is only monday

2009-11-23T05:05:00.000-08:00

the first monday among the 4 mondays of my holiday

all i can conclude
today must be the laziest monday i ever had in pass 5 month
so0 lazy
the weather is not helping
it was drizzle all day long
i dun even need my fan inside my room
A/C? far cry

as usually when im bore my imagination runs wild
i picture myself is like an naked mole rat
under my comforter
*can i blame my spread sheet for bein so0 cozy?*
so0 comfy bein tucked in my comforter...
goshhh

so0 rufusss

on the other hand
my day had a lil bump today
well my gorgie is having her usually migrain
*or should i blame celcom?*
i found out i had 7 unread msg
since 21st
yes
*unison*
OMFG
then i used my maxis phone to text myself
but then it juz didnt arrive
till i got msg
fuck off testin testin
.
.
.
omg i sent it to wrong number
naturally
im pissed
bcoz that creature was cursing at me
like come on,,
silly mistake
plus
fuck off?
is that all u can gv me
come on
wut are u?
12 years old?
but
taking the high road i replied
wut da fuck
b polite next time dude[kinda sure its a male if its a gurl gosh she need major makeover]
i mis send da text
doesnt mean u need to b rude
sorry
.
.
havnt been replied yet
which is ok for me :D

*update*
he is a guy
he called
try to b firm
then when he heard it was fmale voice
he melted
sorry erkh awk?
sp nma awk?
kt mna nie?
TYPICAL
owh no he juz text meee
help.......

coz baby im torn

2009-11-22T09:05:00.000-08:00

every ending is a new beginning

in uni life

every beginnin started wif big plan

n rushing for the one

~~*lets make this simple : kna berebut utk reg subj*~~

gosh

baby im torn

follow my desire which is kinda blur

b in class wif familiarity and frenx

ignorance is the best solution?

owh no

should i follow my dreams in bein the editor at mag

or be in the safety zone?

owh follow my creative lust in photography?

owh my

welll

subconciously

i always wanted to work in mag industry

since i was young

apart for bein fashion designer

i lurve gvin my two cents about stuff

creative writin is wut i like

*currently fluent my self wif 140 character of cursing praising n whinning*

wishing to b editor of mag

but

im no danny meade

i dont hv family legacy in printing industry

perez is my bibble *pun intended here people*

anna wintour is my queen

ugly betty is my past time

devils wear prada is my APA

should i

or should i not

enrolled my self in magazine publishing course

next sem?

my schedule is open for it

its on thursday

not my "wednesday is a movie day"

hurm

or should i stick to what i know n da well verse 1001 things about technology?

or should i follow my inner child

in basic photography?

water painting also sound promising

im quite ok wif brushes

but as usual

i prefer monotone art

life is weird

especially when u r young

embrace it

sucka!

im depressed

2009-11-09T08:00:00.001-08:00

i juz miss those simpler times

n that cute cookies monster tee wearing guy :P

thank you

2009-11-06T09:58:00.000-08:00

*hugs*

gr8 surprise

now i know how they felt

through all this year or humiliating other people

hahhha i was very close to hid under the table hahhaahhahaha

again...

thank you

didie

fafa

syima

riena

kilod

nutty nut pont

heheh

so0 i juz stay there

2009-11-03T04:47:00.000-08:00

wondering

then i figured out

it was nuthing much to say

or done

my life is mine,,,

others? who cares

sumhow tired of being the forgotten

life's like this

n this is how it is

so0 all i wanted to say iss

2009-10-31T07:35:00.000-07:00

the thing is

2009-10-19T06:43:00.000-07:00

im goin to repeat it all over again

i treat people like crap only if

1- they act like a jerk to me

2- they r a freaky lousy people who doesnt deserved pleseanties

3- they stare at me in lousy wat

its not that i wan to recite the same ol same ol story again

but freaky fucking fendy

its not like i treat ur fucking slave , the russian beagle like a dog bcoz he dump me

bcoz i am so0o0o0 over it since like

last year

i dun give fucking shit about that

im treating him like a fuck moron

simply bcoz

he is a moron who shows off infront of my jambu nose

he treat me like crap

dats y i treat him like a stupid lousy crap also

not to mention

he is such a fuck ur slave

try throwin a bone tied up wif rm 10

n ask him to fetch it with his mouth

like seriously

try it!

n u'll loved it

the thing is

as i heard it spreading around

he is trying to b a better person

*applause*applause*

bravo to him

but it doesnt meant i hv to stop treating him like another stupid dirt under my nail

bcoz it doesnt change the fact that he had act like a jerk to me

n NEVER APoLOGIZE

yes keep that in mind fendy

bcoz

i know u dun want to see my dark side anymore

bcoz as ms shobha penned in the poem

words is absolutely painful than a sword

n gosh

im not only good

im GREAT at cursing

even u lost it to me

capiche?

out

yes didie i think

2009-10-09T11:50:00.000-07:00

im sorta a nerd
or its just wut i always said
social outcast??

i rarely
hurm rare could be understatement
no longer update my blog
maybe like i state earlier,,
im happier
so less grumbling
or life is to0 busy for drama?
yeah
dat will do

i guess i just forget to announce

2009-09-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

due to hectic schedule for raya
i forget to share that
i hv new lil munchkin to bully
little

MOHAMMAD FAWWAZ RIDHWAN

bb brother to lil ayul

dob 20 09 2009 * yes eid ul-fitr*
weight 3.2 kg
obviosly bb boi
huhuhuhuu

wut the fuck

2009-09-24T08:01:00.001-07:00

ever felt like a black sheep * always*
dat u r on the wrong side of the road
eventhough sumone else have been to that road
but the never been blame?

WUT THE FUCK
suma wat slh
like u dat go0d
FUCK YOU
n why he can do that
n even though i did sumthing mild compared to wut he did but
im still the bad one?

FUCK U

igt aku suka sgt kew?
pnh pikir pasal aku
nk kena pikir psal sng diri jew
pnh x pikir psai aku
psai study aku?
pnh kew?
penah?

ok diz is fun

2009-08-28T13:18:00.000-07:00

*not bitter juz having fun ok?*

Answer it. "What if your ex says" referring to you~

1. Why did you let me go?
[bcoz u r a jerk n u leave me]

2. I still love you.
[go n fuck ur self darling]

3. When did we last talk?
[last time when u less jerk-ish]

4. Will you go out with me?
[nope]

5. I cannot keep my promise to you.
[yaa u couldnt dun worry i dun blame u you juz being urself]

6. My friends say we don't look good together
{OMG shocked of the century,, my fren said dat to0o they said you to0o0 kg for me]

7. You have changed!
[i know im more marvelous aite? hey u change d to0,, wif all those stuff u n jon gossline should go to club together]

8. Can we get back together?
[no no no no we hv our time aite]

9. Oh, I know what this is all about. You found someone else
[yup2,,, i heard u found urs to0o0 double date later?]

10. Don't you realize? You are the one who hurt me!
[i did? omg im sorry.... NOT]

11. How can u forget our memories??
[i dont,, but i hv better one :P]

12. I will always love you.
[yeah me to0o0 in my nightmare]

13. Would you die for our love?
[na;aa like do we ever hv it,, well i did i dunno bout u]

14. You jump, i jump..remember?
[noo u jump i jump on u since u r bigger]

15. Kiss me to break the curse if i sleep for a hundred years.
[nope i take away all ur wealth]

16. Whats the difference between me and Him/Her.
[he got bicep n he never screams at people]

17. I saw you last night with your girlfriend/boyfriend.
[u did??????? arent we look cute?]

18. Without me, your life wouldn't be complete.
[which songs is this?]

19. Why are you doing this to me!?
[bcoz u r being a jerk to be first.. hey i treat people they way they treat me ok]

20. Is it because of money?
[dude i got more money than u]

hahahhahah kinda silly but it wass so0o0 much fun

its been a while...

2009-08-28T12:53:00.000-07:00

since my last str8 from the heart blogging
as people said when u r in love ur world seems to b better
and yes i seems to lost words
i dunno
mayb bcoz im happy
or sumone had show we the other side of the world
frankly
we are different
to0o0 different
we view sumthing in very different direction
n yet it doesnt seems to annoyed me
mayb the love potions still working or sumthing or maybe the way he treated me
and how he voice his oppinion its truly soften me up
and may b its da fact that im all grown up
my past relationship had thought me the bitterness of life
i admit i become bitter after that
n i dun really like what i've become
then he came
well unexpected
*i think its true, loves will found u when u stop looking for it*
i thot it was all lust
*seriuosly dia adew bicep ok trus cairr*
but then it was him dat i was attracted too
mayb the way he treated me
eventhough when he was angry after
im throw tantrums at public
but his still able to compose himself
seriously
seriously
i dunno bout our future
but he being so0o keen about it
and sumhow it makes me hoping for it to0o0
i dunno..
mayb i grow up
i can think rationally
and mayb dats makes me more tolerable or sumthing
seriously
i think im in love wif him
but i do hv this little tangle inside my heart
the wound from the previous
yes,,,
i dunno
mayb it was too nice for me n dats makes me scared

hahahahah
people said dat i was different wif him compare wif the previous
kn riena kn?
even fendy said so0o
i dunno..
mayb he treated me nicely
n do remember things i said to him,,
it was sorta nice to hv sumbody who actually listen to u
he was nice
yer dia ada bdn sedap :))
dats da plus side :P
tp dia org trganu
tp mak dia suka sayer :P
hahhahahahah

all i heard was the sound of my bell chimes

2009-08-27T10:52:00.001-07:00

loneliness is sumthing that found u
grasp up
n wont leave u alone anymore

yup2
that wut i feel right now
still and quite
my new best friend
herlow guys
kish kish kish[left-right-left]
ok,,, lets hang.....
wanna watch dvd?
owh nvm juz sleep over... she's not here
yes u can do that..
want pizza mcD or dominos?
delivery jewwwww

its all about vampire!!

2009-08-16T09:37:00.000-07:00

right now
im totally in love wif true blood
vampish series on cinemax [its hbo production]
y?
simply bcoz when u talk about vampy
all the vampy must b
hot
hot
hot
i wanna marry one!!!
since angel in vampire slayer till now
rob pat bill eric egg
obviously jason
OMG in love wit the showwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

ok okies
this is jason stackhouse aka ryan swaken he played as anna paquin cutey blurr bro
i mean come on
if u r this

cute
when u r blurr liek this u lo0k cuter ok!!
n hotter!!

all u can eat

2009-08-10T08:12:00.001-07:00

10 august

3 drummets
i double cheese
half medium fries
one red bean bun

ya dats all

9th august

2009-08-09T00:17:00.000-07:00

from 10 am till 1530

plain water
countless bb carot
one table spoon of peanut butter n strawberry

so0o0

2009-08-07T08:00:00.000-07:00

7th august
fasting again today

so0o0
nasi [quite lot]
ayam
terung
okra

*my sis trick me into eating protien bar* 26 kcl calori *FUCK*
now im hungry,,,
haisyh......

this gonna b my diet bo0k

2009-08-05T22:21:00.000-07:00

im fat
i knoe
thank u
so0o0 i wil keep track on my diet
writing in it everyday
startin yesterday laa

5th august
meehon goreng + ayam goreng
ayam percik
rojak buah
nasi goreng ikn masin
sausage in bun

*all in one plate by course*

today

bukak puasa

instant no0dless wif sausage and egg(whole)
3 pieces of fried cocktails

shocked a bit

2009-07-26T01:39:00.000-07:00

my sis went to grocery shopping today
*i was sound asleep when she went out :P*
and come back with dat

like OMG
even my arms are smaller than dat!

hey people its survey!!

2009-07-20T09:08:00.000-07:00

***********FOOD-OLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?
vinegrette only baby im bloated now

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
sweet chat~~ i lurve talking

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
yong tau fo0 believe me!

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Pepperoni & Cheese

What do you like to put on your toast?
plain salted butter

**********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many television sets are in your house?
now 1 home 3

What color of cell phone do you have?
black black black

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
righty!

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
none..

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
my sis bag to klia... it was like 6 kg?

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
nope.. but nearly when i was in f1 hahhahaha

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
nope

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
i dunno...

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
mayb.. i need money right now hahhaha

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
juz one now.. i don really fancy flops

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
owhh my boyfriend? huhuhu

Last person you talked to?
en logan

Last person you hugged?
bolt!

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
Autumn bcoz it so0 darn romantic!

Holiday?
my bday!

Day of the week?
saturday would b nice

Month?
november bcoz a cute gurl was born!

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?
yes! not juz one many!

Mood?
content n sleepppy zZZZzzzZZzZ

What are you listening to?
breakaway kelly clarckson

Watching?
My macy!

Worrying about?
my back

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
bathroom!

What's the last movie you saw?
transformers! wanna watch public enemy!

Do you smile often?
yes to0 much

Do you always answer your phone?
Depends on my mood

It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
could b anyone..my fren hv tendency to do that

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
nope.. its juz me

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
will berry! always lurve wild berries

Do you own a digital camera?
nope i juz hv lomo

Have you ever had a pet fish?
yes kissing fish my sis bought me for my bday n it died!

7) Favorite Christmas song?
santa clause is coming to town!

What's on your wish list for your birthday?
that bally gladiator!! like it ever comes tru!

Can you do push ups?
yes...

Can you do a chin up?
nope.. too0o0 weak in upper body part...

Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Nervous!!!! but sum part like married is kinda excite me :P

Do you have any saved texts?
yup2 famous for doin that! if u ever promise me sumthing in text u would never wan to cross it bcoz i'll save it up:P

Ever been in a car wreck?nope

Do you have an accent?
yes of course

What is the last song to make you cry?
graduation!

Plans tonight?
tdo laa jap g

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
yes i did last year but wif motivation from frenz n family im ok now!

Name 3 things you bought in the last week
food stuff n stuff ok fine i juz cnt stop spending!

Have you ever been given roses?
Yup2

Current worry?
muka gatai!

Current hate right now?
non

Met someone who changed your life?
Not yet

How did you bring in the New Year!
party at kak hanim!! dunno bout next year

What song represents you now?
say it again marie digby [im giddy n smitten :p sue me!]

Name three people who might complete this?
them he she [hohoho complete pronouns]

What were you doing at 12 AM last night?
sleep!

What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
pkui brapa erkh?